Where does the time go???
And where the hell have I been??

So, I'm not going to whine and complain too much noreallyIactuallyam, but here's the deal.

If you hadn't heard yet, I've moved back to Philly to be with my mom. Living in Florida was nice and sunny and all, but when your dad is in denial about how sick you really are, its best to go to the parent who understands and is going to help you get the health care you need, with doctors familiar with your case. I'm currently having a serious flare up of my Crohn's disease, and haven't been on treatment in over a year; which will change within the next month or so thank god.

All that weight loss I was talking about in my past journal hasn't yet stopped because of this, incidentally. Since June of 2011 I've officially lost over 50 lbs, and the scale is still decreasing. While I was ecstatic at first (this being because I was a bit overweight), I'm at the point where I'm seriously concerned; loosing roughly about a pound and a half a week, I'm scared of becoming underweight, and its only going to take another 10-15 lbs or so for it to become unhealthy weight loss. While lots of girls would yell at me to stop bitching and wish to be able to loose weight at that speed, let me tell you how NOT fun it has been.

On top of the weight loss and the general feeling shitty, I haven't been sleeping much. Seriously. Look at my posting times. All of this general bitching and moaning leads up to the fact that I've been pretty depressed for months, and am slowly coming out of it. While I'm usually all jokes, smiles, and laughing, people don't really realize that that's just how I cope with everything. Now its all becoming a bit more genuine as I start to feel emotionally better.

Besides my health, my mom, her boyfriend Scott, and I will be moving next month, so I'm kinda excited about that. After the move and after I've started treatment again, my mom wants me to look into colleges, which I am SO ready for.
I can't wait to be healthy again and be back in school. I've put it off and put it off for other people and their reasons, and I can't wait to do something for myself that will make me happy. I know, so nerdy to be excited for school, but with a supportive parent behind you that will help you get to where you want to go, and will push you towards the profession you want, its really a wonderful thing. I'm pretty damned lucky and I know it.

And since I haven't posted in forever, I guess you can say that that's my resolution for this year. To be healthy again, happy, and back in school, and churning out art and cosplay and other shit that makes me happy as I go.

Thanks to all my watchers and friends, and those who continually support me and what I do. Right now, it really does mean more than you really know